I'm so flipping mad right now. I've been with hubby for over 12 years now. I know all of his tricks. He's been going out for years...2-3 times a week. I don't mind so much that he goes out but does it have to be that many times a week? Plus he spends $50-$60 a each time. That's at least $150 a week. I make less than that at one of my jobs and he doesn't make that much at his. I don't ever get to go out or buy things. I have a lot of built up resentment towards him. I think a big part of me really hates him for this. Plus we never go out together without the kids ever. Last time was over a year and a half ago. Maybe I wouldn't be so pissed if one of those nights, he gave up being alone and spent it with me instead. $50 would pay for a movie or dinner.

We had another fight last night over money. He got a card from his grandmother with $30 and he wanted another $40 from me to go out. Who needs that much money to go out alone one night? I could buy some clothes with that money. Plus our little guy really needs some sneakers. Well I told him that I wasn't giving him any money and that he had to wait til he got paid the next day. He had a hissy fit. Wouldn't let it go. Started slamming doors. Started calling me names. I'm just so sick of it. I gave him $25. I know, stupid but it got him to leave. So now today, he got paid and told me that he won't give me back the $25 because it was gas money. Well, then why is the tank on E? I didn't drive the car to Buffalo and back so why shouldn't I get the $25 back?

It's been like this for years. We would have a certain amount of money for the week for groceries, gas, cigs. I would give him the amount needed for cigs and gas and he would come home with no cigs, gas or money. So then we would have to dip into the bill money to buy gas and some cigs. I'm just so fed up.

He thinks I finally want to leave because my older 2 are grown up now (18 & 15). That has nothing to do with it. Thinks I used him all these years for his money. Ha! I was single mother for years and was much happier too.

I wish this place wasn't in just my name or I would move out. Hubby won't budge. I really wish I knew what to do.